Friday, January 18, 2013

Could You?

I know. I know. I just found it among my old and scattered poetry and I agree that it's a terribly awful poem. But seriously...isn't the meter crazy? I need to put it to something more light-hearted. :)
 
Would you stop your beating heart?
Could you stop your beating heart?
Would you tear your soul apart?
Could you tear your soul apart?
Would you murder?
Could you kill?
Dare you end your life at will?
Should you,
Would you,
Could you,
Dare you
Will you?
Is your heart
Unimportant?
Is it really
Just an organ?
Would you stop
Your beating heart?
Would you tear
Your soul apart?
Blood. Pain.
How long
You try
To cease the pain
To cease to cry.
Breath. Breath.
Feel how precious.
Would you stop
Your breathing, too?
See.  See.
Red, blue.
Would you, could you,
End that, too?
Feel. Feel.
The touch of flesh
You weep and weep.
The blood is fresh.
Warm blood.
Your blood.
Could you,
Would you
Make it cold,
Like gold,
So cold,
Old
Blood.
Old Blood.
Old. Cold. Blood.
Could you stop your beating heart?
Could you tear your soul apart?
Should you? Would you? Could you? Dare you? Will you?

Sunday, January 13, 2013

The Necklace of Sun Stars


This is the longest poem I've ever written.  After reading a whole book of Norse mythology translated by Tolkein I had to write something of my own. :) 
 

Red-tailed swans whirled over head;

Blue winged robins sang in their bed.

Deep in the forest, deep in the wood,

Wood chucks chucked as fast as they could.

Peter and Polly and all of the gang

Ruling the wood, so cheerfully sang.

They sang of a path hid in a rainbow

To a tiny castle in crystal snow.

They danced round a fire that crackled stern,

In shoes of spider silk and fern.

Though not a sound did their tiny feet make,

Their voices rose till the wood was awake.

They danced and danced under sun and moon

To the laughing jay and the weeping loon

Till all was quiet under the sky

And the air was thick with golden flies.

Then they hushed each noisy tongue

And crawled in beds in branches hung.

Soon each was asleep in silk cocoons

Under a sleepy soft, pale moon.

Each little eye shut, each breath a song,

Set to a meter slow and long.

Dreams swirled about their curly hair,

And tumbled out into open air.

 

And as they drowned in sleep so sweet

There came a noise from the wooded street.

Beneath their nests so warm and snug,

A woman walked on forest rug.

Shrouded in mist, clothed in shade,

She wandered between the grassy blades.

Each shriveled beneath her bone white feet

With helpless whispers of deathly sleep.

She circled around the children’s tree

Where they gently swung in the evening breeze.

With deep dark eyes she watched and brooded

Unseen among the trees thick wooded.

 

Morning arrived there golden and pink,

Greeted with dew drops and robin speech.

The sun awoke the sleeping tribe

Who leapt from their nests so silver and high.

Out they tumbled, one by one,

And soon they sleepily joined in song.

With a shout, Peter and all his brethren ran

To hunt beneath the rising sun.

 

They left little Polly, and as she stirred a broth,

She sighted a mushroom with spots like a moth.

Wood-wise, plant-wise, still she’s never seen

The like before of this mushroom being.

To her surprise a shadowed woman,

Untouched by morning dew or sun,

Appeared behind the old oak tree

Where she’d hidden in the shade unseen.

“Take, eat; the shroom is good,

And it will make more fine the food!”

Her voice was so with sweetness wed

That Polly did as the woman said.

She cut the shroom in twelve equal pieces,

One for each boy in twelve savory dishes.

She seasoned all with spice so rare

Till the lads arrived with a fresh slain hare.

 

Polly cooked them a meal of fragrant stuff

And bade them feast till they’d had enough.

 

In branch so high the woman sat

Her eyes twinkled and she smothered a laugh.

And as the chuckle touched her throat

All the poor boys with death were smote!

Each fell from his stump still clutching his spoon

And the forest was filled with the cries of a loon.

 

The woman be shadowed, be guiled, and blackened

Laughed in the face of Polly, sore stricken.

She laughed of her success and boasted her claim

Of the wooded kingdom as her own she named.

Her black smoke spread o’er all the wood

Like a stormy cloud, like an inky hood.

No more did the golden flies shine at night

No more did the red swans dance in flight.

All was silent beneath the trees

Save for the rustling, the shuffling of leaves.

Alone walked the woman, white and fair,

But a tremor of fear passed through the air.

Her hands reached into every breeze,

Cold hands chilling the rustling leaves…

 

But Polly ran, she ran alone,

Through earth and tree and wind and stone.

Till she came to a glad so quiet and green

And with heartbroken sobs sank to her knees.

Farewell to her brethren, farewell to her kin!

Farewell to Peter, the Forest King!

Farewell to her nest fellows, her brothers and boys;

Already she forgot the songs they enjoyed.

Exhausted with weeping, worn out with fear

She fell asleep while the shadows drew near.

Little hands gently carried her high

To treetops where the sun still shined.

They fed her and cared for her and made her their own:

In Fairyland Polly found a home.

 

Then one day she rose from her bed,

A beautiful maiden with a golden head.

Red lips she had, and bright eyes like gems,

A necklace of sun stars about her bosom.

The fairy queen saw her and knew in her heart

That the wood and her Mother should not be apart.

So Polly a maiden now strong and fair

Set out to the castle of the Shadow Mare.

(For that was what all the wood called her.

And save for that title, no name had she other.)

 

The Shadow Mare in eternal smoke

Sat and gazed at her forest below.

Though through murder she claimed that place,

She kept the land with a determined face.

One day she was startled to find at her door,

A poor maiden searching for work somewhere.

Her clothes were drab, her face all smudged,

Although the chain of sun stars the queen begrudged.

“I’ll give you work and bed at night

If you will give me your jewels so bright.”

And so it was that Polly worked

In the home of the woman that she abhorred,

And about that woman’s slender neck

Hung Polly’s hundred starry specks.

Yet little knew the queen as she drifted about

On mist and shadow like a dark storm cloud

That the necklace she boasted about her neck

Was enchanted by the fair folk.

And in that necklace there they bound

Twelve sad grievances into one.

And here lay the key enchantment

The necklace bearer’s unknown commitment:

That if ever the necklace was broke or burst

The curse upon the destroyer would thirst.

 

And so it was while Polly worked

Ever she sought the necklace to burst.

But to many things to wax and clean

Made her few chances even more mean.

And yet! There came a glistening day

(Glistening in tears and sad array):

The anniversary of the queen

To come into power over the woodlen beings.

A dark celebration she said it would be

When all must praise her wit and beauty.

 

The trees were covered to hide their green

And black was painted each robin’s wing.

 

As Polly trialed over a smoke grey cake

Deep in the castle, hot from the bake

She heard the bell that tinkled drear:

The queen desired to have her near!

Quickly Polly ran to the queen

Through halls of mushrooms and tall dark trees.

The queen commanded Polly cloth her fair

To celebrate the day so rare.

Soon covered in mist and smoking gauze

The queen was a beauty without spot or flaw.

At last she bade her servant place

Upon her bosom the glittering necklace.

Polly struggled and pretended to gasp,

At last pleading help with the stubborn latch.

The queen-- so angry, so fair, so white--

Reached back her hands to fix the plight.

Yet as soon as she grasped the necklace tips

Polly yanked the white hands—and the necklace ripped!

The little sun stars went scattering like bees

Falling in the floor’s cracks to hide from the scene.

Twelve deaths of laughing boys;

Twelve ends of merry joys;

Twelve sorrows deep and red;

Twelve losses to the Dead;

Twelve murders, one a king;

Twelve songs ended, no more to sing.

Each grief a torture, a blinding storm,

Now rushed upon the Shadow Mare’s form.

The pain, the grief, the guilt she felt

Ravaged and tore her blood apart.

Her suffering shrieks filled the air

Till all the wood stopped with open-mouthed stares.

Unbearable pain, unstoppable agony—

This was what drove her to jump off the balcony!

In one rush of wind her body fell

And left a pit like some undrinkable well.

 

Then Polly—so beautiful, so womanly, and fair--

Went to the balcony where all the wood stared

Throwing up her hands she at last remembered

The song of her brothers long ago dismembered.

Soon the woods were alive with songs of light

And the trees shook off their garments of fright.

 

Again danced the golden flies, again flew the swans

The sun rose once more and the mist was gone.

Through peaceful glade and meadow soft,

Again walked Polly, her head aloft.

And soon were the cocoons filled with children

And twelve happy voices sang in the glen.

 

 

J